Jacalyn Eyvonne: California Poets Part 10, Five Poems

Jacalyn Eyvonne

April 2nd, 2026

California Poets: Part X

Jacalyn Eyvonne

Five Poems

When The Sky Rains Tears

It’s not about the weather.

The clouds aren’t gathering for nothing.

They aren’t huddling,

so you can have something to look at.

The sky is readying itself to shed

it’s tears as it grieves over children

running from men, masked and covered

in fearful gear,

snatching lives off the streets,

stealing them away from their fathers,

their mothers,

from places where …

The American dream once lived.

When the sky rains tears

It’s because

Compassion has been lost.

Its thunder warns in echoes of…

What is to come.

Falling upon

empty classrooms and unkept fields

where migrant workers

no longer tend to crops.

It’s tears,

rain over the innocent

dragged from their cars.

Over those

that didn’t make it from their cars.

The sky is tired of acting

as though everything is alright.

Growing angrier inside its sadness.

Raining heavily across the rivers

and over the seas, cleansing streets

and rooftops, hoping that we will all

wake to the harm that is being done.

To the truth.

Tears drench the protest signs

and the candles, the footsteps

of refugees trying to hide inside

a country that has lost its balance.

Raining across the rubble of hate.

The sky is raining tears over fear,

over the helpless.

Over those who no longer sleep.

Hoping that it can rinse us all clean

of hostility.

Hoping that it can cleanse our hearts

so that we can clearly see…

What a crying world looks like.

Mommy went to be with the Moon

He points to the moon every night.

Tiny fingers waving before he goes to bed.

His mommy was pregnant with his sibling.

Seeking treatment for a heart condition

in a state that was fearful of the threats

of treating pregnancy that might trigger an abortion.

Even though she needed treatment to save her life.

She wanted her baby.

But care was refused even though her time was short.

Her emergency was critical.

Her two-year-old son needed her,

forcing the difficult choice to abort.

But time was not accommodating,

she could not wait the two weeks for the

nonsensical tests required.

Tests that would move her past the

allocated, 12-week belly rule.

She could not wait with a weakening heart.

Treatment was still refused, because fear is

a strange weapon, even when you’ve

taken the Hippocratic Oath to “Do no harm.”

That says the patient’s best interest comes first.

She was found face down in bed,

while her little man watched over her

from his crib as she sailed away beyond the clouds.

He was told she was like an angel who flew

to the moon, so that she could look upon him

each night, but he couldn’t understand.

He knew when his ice cream melted onto his tongue,

To drift down into his belly, it was gone.

He knew when the car passed by his window

and drove beyond his line of sight, it was gone.

Yet his little mind failed to understand why

his mommy went away.

So, in his confusion, he still waves and smiles.

Finding shapes inside the round glow.

Sometimes a dragon, sometimes a rock.

Some days he can see a flower.

Some days he cries, and when the clouds are thick,

and he can’t see the moon, his little voice asks

“Where is Mommy?  When is she coming home?”

Wondering again why she went away.

“She cannot come back,” voices whisper.

“But look closely, see there, she is inside those

dark spots, watching, smiling, loving you.”

And so, his grin broadens, his little arm raises

Towards the sky, where tiny fingers wave

past the stars, past the stillness, beyond the ceiling

of heaven, pointed at the darkened shapes

on the moon.  Too little to know her real name,

Ciji Graham, because to him she will always only be

Mommy.

A Dedication.

Tiptoeing Into Water

Tiptoeing into water, I waded slowly

as if the water would wash away my secrets,

Pausing carefully, one slow footstep,

Then another.

Each step forward became an apology,

while listening and waiting for the ripples

to grant me permission

before moving forward.

The cold water wrapped around my ankles

like a dare, unmoved by my hesitation,

my quiet careful.

Pacing myself, holding my body back,

constantly wading half in, half out.

Wondering why my bones could not feel

bravery, catching up inside my emotions

as the water passed me by.

I want to tell you about fear

And how unsettling it can be.

It doesn't warn you when it's coming.

The tide is not softened

because you are afraid of drowning,

afraid to walk through life with courage.

So cautious that you tiptoe through each day,

weary of the challenges ahead.

Hesitating while keeping the whispers

of your desire inside yourself

is not living.

Life is not a place for almost.

Living needs your full attention.

It needs you to splash, to wade, to dive in

and get swept away so that you can

Grow your gills.

Fear and silence are the greatest thieves,

and life doesn't wait for you to feel

comfortable out loud or to splash into the unknown.

Before you know it, age beckons.

Days and years pass.

And you realize that the dreams held

in your hand, have drifted

and washed away inside the ripples of life.

Truth be known, tiptoeing teaches you

nothing about life’s currents when you are

too fearful to step into the unknown.

Just as tiptoeing teaches you nothing

about joy. And when it’s too late, you realize that

change and chance have slipped from you.

Too careful, too afraid

to tiptoe deeper into the water.

Our Freedom is Still Unsettled

The rumors spoke of “Freedom,”

The ink on the paper said, “It was done.”

The chains were removed.

But the world remained distant,

questions remained unanswered.

Liberty did not unfold with a piece of paper

Fragile words written inside a country that

Choosing to pay those who lost chattel slaves

reparations, while only opening the door

to pass go into a country that offered nothing.

No answers, no apologies, no maps

leading you back to your stolen babies.

No directions to point you to where your father

or mother, or both, were stolen away,

to be sold like a frayed buggy,

but treated with less care than the horse

that pulls the carriage.

Treated as though you were not human

As though your tears had no meaning.

Emancipation was a footnote.

To be happy and afraid at the same time.

Fearful of the future.

Fearful that the past would

sneak back and swoop you up,

back into the chains. Back into the fields.

Now trapped inside a new kind of pain,

where wives and sons, and mothers

live inside your memories and

prayers of hope and new longing

rush each shadow, each memory of

the shape of their body, remembering

the way the strands of hair stand

on their head, hoping they remain

beyond the grave, beyond the silence.

Still, you move, you build, you survive

Inside the armor built from hate.

Hoping you will be protected.

That one day, the person you look upon.

will be the one that was taken

away from you.

Today I Found My Cure

Today I stopped wanting, stopped waiting,

for someone to ease my isolation, to bring me

a glass of water to fill my emptiness, or cover me

in a warm blanket to fix my pain. Every day I looked

for someone to share words that felt right

when my world felt like it was falling away.

Searching for someone else to ease my discomfort

while pulling back on life as the moon looked on

until the following morning's sunrise.

Today, I stopped seeking a cure that could never

be felt from the caress of someone else, realizing

that the antidote needed could be summoned

from my touch, from the emotions drawn from deep

inside me, where I finally melted into my surrender.

I embraced myself today and wrapped my arms

around the inner storm of my life, holding tightly

As my fingers pressed against my skin like ropes

wrapping me, holding me, pulling me back

from the edge of life where I had been living.

Leaving behind the fragility that made me feel

as though I were about to spill. Holding myself became

my bridge, my breath, the way I found the strength to become

the builder of my life, and the ability to move forward, knowing

that no one could ever evict me from my own arms.

Author Bio:

Vallejo, CA Co-Poet Laureate Emerita (Jan. 1, 2024 - Dec. 31, 2025), Jacalyn Eyvonne's books include I Am Not An Inconsequential Word-Poetry and Remnants, Venting To Verse: How To Turn Anger Into Poetry, and The Unyielding Weight of Words: Poems on Reflection, Healing, and Love. Along with her newest collection available in 2026, The Weeping Willow Is Black, she has co-edited Youth Poetry Letters and the recent A New Season: Poems for a World in Flux anthology. She is the former publisher of In The Company of Poets Magazine, with work featured internationally, including Hues of Spring Anthology 2, NYRA Publishers; World Healing World Peace, 2024, Inner Child Press, Holes: An Anthology, JLRB Press, Wheelsong United Kingdom Anthologies 3/4, Moonstone, Screaming at America, Rituals 2024, among numerous others. A graduate of the Academy of Art University in Motion Picture and Television, Jacalyn has taught youth poetry and monologue delivery, implementing Youth Poetry Workshops, the Poetry Playground, Youth Poets In The Spotlight, and Poetry and Art Chalk Walks. She is the founder/director of Monologues and Poetry International Film Fest and Open Mic, and has been featured in the Vallejo Times-Herald, Daily Republic, Vacaville Reporter, and The Mississippi Link newspaper.